Just Before You Say, “My QA’s a B****”
The work that we do sometimes entails a little fire and smoke. Not everyone properly understands how we think or do things, or why. But, one thing’s for sure – we’re never motivated by personal agendas. Proven so is reason enough to kick us out of the game for a lifetime. As I’d always tell my team, our job isn’t for the faint-hearted. We bombard ourselves with hourly, daily, weekly, and monthly…
And everyday, you will ask yourself if you really are cut out for this. You always have thoughts of doubt – and you will doubt, definitely – as it is haunting you constantly. But, you’ll go on. You will still act and fight. And maybe, you will start doing the right things soon. Perhaps you’ll start turning heads and bashing first impressions. Maybe you can prove yourself acceptable to their eyes,…
There are days when we just need to be that person hungry for another’s advice. Not always – as if your life depends on the lack of it – but there are days. It’s been more than a month since I knew, and about almost a month in actual. Looking back, I’m aware that I never got the chance to absorb what new role I got myself into: didn’t unleash my usual ecstatic jumping-for-joy self, didn’t post a…
If you have been a follower of my blog, you should know that the ‘Big Day’ is something really special and personal to me. This post should have been published 30 days prior to the Big Day – I know, I’m sorry – but I just can’t let another week pass without getting my annuak dose of wishful thinking. Thank you, fans, for making my Big Day wishes, your command. Charot! Well, here goes… 1. A bag of…
It is true that “almost” is one of the saddest, most excruciating words that ever existed. Or said. Or felt. *** Where should I start? If you could sum up what’s happened in the last five days, you would, but the best that you could think of was that you’ve felt almost every high and low in the world back to back – excited, happy, doubtful, afraid, frustrated, stressed, disconnected, depressed,…
Lagi na lang. Parating kailangan kong abutin ang pagkataas-taas na basehan ng kagalingan. Kailangan kong mangarap. Kailangan kong maghirap. Kailangan kong may marating, o di kaya ay marating ang pangarap nila para sa akin. Sila na minsan ko lang nakilala, ilan pa sa kanila’y di kaanu-ano; sila na sumusubaybay sa buhay ko upang manigurado na pagdating ng panahon ay may maitulong ako – mayroon…
To those who have ever felt demotivated, here is an excerpt from my journal some two years ago: “I know motivation will come only from myself. Kaso ayoko magpanggap na gusto ko o natutuwa ako sa mga pangyayari… It makes me just don’t wanna think further, and look at the bright side. Gusto ko sana to just not give a D about it ever. “Pero sa huli, alam ko naman na kakailanganin ko mag-decide. Ano…
Those who are new to the news had one thing in question. And I have always told them, ‘yes’, because I knew in my heart that I am – I am happy. Falling in the manner that I did was not only exciting – it was remarkable. It felt powerful, a little under addictive, but all in all, beautiful, I believed.
Back then, it was impossible to exist. And though I wanted to, I was never sure if you would, and I was not really into rejections. I pre-empted myself that the fears may far outweigh the pleasure. And for the longest time, I had this one unspoken mission of supression, which I eventually realized was never effective enough. No. Maybe, not at all.
To my younger self, I am writing you this letter now that I know this epidem is getting worse. Maybe it is curable, but at this stage, cure is not as easily attainable as one would expect. So I beseech you, young me, to read very carefully, so that maybe in your youth, you might be able to stop the sickness that has now been a thorn in my flesh. They all say it – my parents, my other immediate…